I seek guidance in moonshine
making love to blissful moments
too fleeting for definition

"who would like to join me,"
I ask myself in solitude
knowing deafening silence awaits

i'm stunned at the ways
an ironic evening can define
the night
one that's yet to come

and we notice in slumber
those summer moments
when newly minted
leaves chime
to the memory of something that has
yet to occur

and i
like you
concur

i
like you
unaware
like awakening to
new foliage shading
a living room window
and
appreciating its
presence

like remaining an innocent bystander
to your most difficult
breaths
knowing it's not only
air that fills your
lungs

knowing
rather feeling
the effects of energy
waiting for the
time when everything's
captured in song
in poetry

knowing
rather feeling
that the cooling effects
of your favorite
breeze
often tickles your
senses
and fades
before
you notice it

somehow
we've become a unified body
together like language
in raw forms
able to organize
utterance
yet still undefined

somehow
i realize this now
and without you
i refuse to exist
refuse to take
a conscious form
in my own mind
like knowing you can blink
in awe
of the fine motor functions
outside your control
like when a song
invades the deepest
part of memory
and suddenly
defines everything
you are
and were
and never knew
you could be

somehow in your
absence i've become
more complete
like that moment
when fear helps you realize
your own frailty
somehow i've known this all along
because
i want to know you
but don't want to know you're there
because
in my clumsiness
i will destroy you
and lose me