Slight Allowance of Silence

the grey turquoise of a recently sunset sky
blankets everything below
leaving leaves and other objects as silhouettes 
and i amid its darkness
my finest moments are as the sun
bright, yet out of reach and poised to return
however in this dusk
my thoughts entertain these latest mistakes
and while i beg myself for forgiveness
i can't help but mourn over the loss of the day
and pine for the illuminated images of morning
i miss the ability to project shadows along lit fields of grass and sidewalk
but I require this blinded reflection
and i helplessly negotiate with this new night
i ask it not to overwhelm me with guilt 
allowing an insolent insomnia to extend the hours of my impending loneliness
i know my errors
and now bathe in them 

just as a cool breeze soaks this night's surroundings
in my defense 
i only sought happiness and companionship
and while my cowardice inspired your needless tears
i want you to know i appreciate you
i appreciate you as i appreciate this night alone
and all its needed insanity
maybe i will awaken a better man
maybe a new day will dawn before sunrise
maybe this is a new day